I am taking an independent study class with John Amoroso, and once a week I am assigned to write a journal about what I managed to accomplish as far as writing my novel is concerned. I have been lamenting the fact that my word output has been miserably low. John told me that when an artist is moving from the incubation phase to the actual creation phase she often cleans her workspace. Today I impulsively rearranged the library where I work. All I really did was move my desk from one side of the room to the other side, but it took three hours. I managed to fill a garbage sack full of papers, old articles, things I’ve been meaning to get back to for two years now. I filed away two years worth of my son’s school reports, and I even found my last novel that I’d forgotten I’d printed out. The novel went into a notebook and was ceremoniously placed on the shelf. Now new energy can flow in and through my creative space again, I am all set. I may even decide to do some night writing.
Past life regression is a little like cleaning out our creative space. We hold onto a lot of unfinished business—subconscious memories resembling those magazine articles and progress reports waiting to be either integrated into our filing system or let go of as old news. Once we release that old energy, it frees up our life. There is a saying that you can’t receive anything with a clenched fist. As an exercise I try to consciously keep at least one hand open, palm up, ready to receive what the Universe has to offer. It takes effort and work to clear out energetic space, and it seems that once the task is completed, it will only be a matter of time before it fills up again, and we must start over. This letting go and receiving is a practice, like meditation. When I meditate, I still chase my thoughts and hold tightly onto them, so tightly sometimes that I actually feel my body leaning forward as though reaching for something. But then I remember to breath, I straighten my spine and center myself, and let the well begin to fill.
Ahh, it feels so good to be here.
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